Eeesh, sorry you’ve had a tough time of it. Mrs C has been very much in the same boat, she’s been stuck at home for over a year due to her clinically vulnerable status. As a midwife, it’s pretty hard for her to do her job from home and I’ve watched her mental health slide considerably. Taking a lockdown drive to Leicester last April and returning with a kitten for her was somewhat irresponsible/illegal but I don’t regret it one bit, that cat has kept her sane.I fully understand you. People are social animals by nature and if we don't get that, negativity, depression and similar bad stuff hits us fairly quickly.
I also don't mind spending time home but lots of things changed in my life within a year time and I unfortunately couldn't cope with everything and unfortunately had to deal with all of it being stuck alone. As a result I had suicidal thoughts and even more serious actions towards in a few occasions recently. I struggled with personal life changes, also stress at work (reduced number of people, larger workloads, more pressure, frozen wages, postponed bonuses...), not being able to meet friends etc... I know everything is temporarily, but the times goes on and it rather seems as a "new normal" like some people say or we can find this phrase on media - which really doesn't help at all as it just raises more fears and uncertainty about the future! It was all too much for me... Luckily, I spoke about it at my work and my dear colleagues noticed the changes too. They acted gently but sensibly which has helped to cross the line and start climbing the life ladders up again...
It's crazy how negatively in certain situations a long-term lockdown can affect, and nobody is protected of it... Apologies for off topic. Just wanted to raise awareness about people around us. I also noticed on the roads, while driving, some people are more aggressive and less patient, same I can see with customers at work. Luckily, I don't need to deal with people on roads and customers at work all day long, but I would imagine it can be even harder for some people...
I will probably let myself out for a few weeks around Europe on trains & buses when it will be allowed - just to feel the taste of freedom again...
I agree that these challenges (a year ago a laughed of this word, but now I truly appreciate its meaning) will shift the world and the way people are thinking. I hope, for better, not worse...
Glad you managed to talk to some people and right the ship, staying quiet when you’re struggling doesn’t do you any good 👍